Dr. Reynolds is really good at mentioning one thing in session that brings me close to tears and then not continuing down that path.

I don't know... Session today had some really good points, but I'm kind of disappointed.

Yeah... I don't know... weird mood returned.

Song of the Semester.

This song is exactly what I need every time I hear it. I often forget about it, but we sang it at Singspo tonight. I was in a terrible mood tonight, and now I'm not. I can't find who it's by or what it's called, but it's perfect.

Love came down and rescued me

Love came down and set me free

I am Yours

I am forever Yours

Mountain high or valley low

I sing out, remind my soul

That I am Yours

I am forever yours

I think that I did well in school because I wanted to go to college because I wanted to get away.

I'm not passionate about being an elementary teacher.

I'm not passionate about doing anything.

I love Torrey and I think I'd enjoy being in Torrey classes forever... but my other classes? I couldn't care less.

Ugh.

I just feel absolutely unmotivated about everything right now.

Things of note.

• I had a worksheet in class today and my group got the third highest score, even though we essentially failed.
• I got a much better grade on my essay than I had expected.
• We sang Disney songs on the way to Disneyland and Richie didn't hold back at all...
• I finally got my annual pass. I can go to Disneyland whenever (except for Saturdays.) :)
• Belle is in love with Richie.
• I like skipping.
• I'm looking forward to my Christmas Eve services back home. The Christmas tree lighting was nice, but it made me miss home and my normal traditions.
• I like fire and candles.

Or we could just keep doing things this way.

I got into bed last night and realized that, once again, I forgot to blog. I think I'm just going to do these mid-day/mid-evening/whenever it's convenient.

Today and yesterday were good days because:

• Frank Sinatra keeps being played in the bathroom. I appreciate when others appreciate Sinatra.
• when it's not Sinatra, it's typically John Mayer or *NSYNC, sometimes a good mixed CD, and occasionally bad radio music. I appreciate knowing that the girls on my floor have good taste in music or aren't motivated enough to change the music.
• my PIN number for my debit card came. I'm already spending too much money, but I'm going to stop. I had to get Christmas presents. And Jack's Mannequin stuff... which leads me to my next point.
• I ordered sheet music for Konstantine, a cute Jack's Mannequin/whale shirt for $5, and a replacement for my awesome jacket that I lost in a smaller size for $15.
• I got cute Christmas mugs.
• dollar stores are fun.
• I got more free Chick-fil-a.
• I wrapped the railing on my bed and it looks cute.
• I'm only slightly sick now.

Yesterday...

The problem with being on the top bunk is that when you get into bed and realize you forgot to do something, that something never quite seems worth the effort of getting out of bed and then back into bed. Such is what happened last night, even though I was in bed for at least an hour before actually falling asleep for some strange reason so I may as well have blogged. (Is it may as well or might as well? I feel like may as well is more natural, but it doesn't quite sound right.) Another inconvenience with bunk beds is that my glasses like to fall off of my bed and under Caress', and then I'm stuck with figuring out how the heck to get under Caress' bed when there's no space to move it and it's too close to the ground to get under. I ended up taking out her mattress and one of the boards under it. Anyways, back to yesterday.

Things that made me smile:

• being able to sleep through a class because I was sick but not being limited to my room for the rest of the day. (Such was the rule if I missed school while I lived at home.)
• waking up and not feeling quite as terrible as the day before.
• Dr. Spears.
• hearing that my Torrey paper was "decent." Better than I expected...
• random bursts of energy when I'm sick.
• gift cards.
• plushie penguins with scarves. I still kind of wish I had bought it, but I know I shouldn't have... but...
• sleep.

Happy December!

I am grateful for:

• extensions.
• sleep.
• free food.
• good lemonade.
• Dr. Campbell.
• Ignatius.
• unsuccessful Disneyland trips.
• friends.
• relaxing (even if I shouldn't).
• December's Eve and everything included in it.
• Hope, especially North Star.